Childish

I really did not think it was possible for a 50 year old woman to act so childish. I went home this weekend to see Saggy and Bear. Upon asking said parents if I could go to Germany for three weeks, I received two reactions. The first of which was Saggy going apeshit and ruining the rest of my weekend. She then told me to go ask Bear what he thought of it. So I did, and he listened to everything I had to say, and instead of just flipping the fuck out, he told me he would have to think about it. Everytime I saw Saggy and Bear wasnt around, she was a fucking nut. She was yelling at me, telling me I am wasting 3,000. She pretty much told me if I am able to take out loans for this trip that I can pretty much take care of myself from here on out. I have to make a pretty big decision--I will be severly in debt if I go on this trip. Not the three grand--the 22,000 that I have left to pay while going to school here. Mind you, I have to pay for an apartment, food, and insurance on top of all of that. I really think I am going to go for it. At sometime or another I have to take control of my own life. Fuck Saggy. I need to do this for myself.

So all in all it was a horrible weekend. The boy created enough rage and hatred in me that I dont want to see him for a week or so. Why are boys idiots? Whatever. Fuck him.

I wish I was more amusing. This weekend really brought morale down. I hope to be back to normal tomorrow.